I love it when people give nice comments on my blog. When they comment on some poem/thought thing which i’ve clean forgotten about. It’s really nice to see a previous and be reminded “oh i wrote that”.

FYP. I really hope it’d end just this instance. I don’t like any part of the process. It’s not fun and somehow it makes me feel like i won’t talk to some of group mates after the whole thing is over. I’m not afraid of that. I’m afraid of that fact i still got to see them even though i know the probably outcome of our relationships.

Come november 27th. I pray that everything will be alright.

I also don’t know who is true and who is not. I spend more time watching my back that to progress forward.

Sometimes i wish i can see everything through a camera lens. And when the perfect moment comes, a snap is all it takes to remember everything. A lifetime can be spent studying a person’s motives and true intentions from their emotions.

In my heart, i’m not too sure if i want to continue with engineering in the U. I’ll tink about it, pray about it and maybe see how things go. I started this course with great ambitions and interest but as time passed and after so many things… i’m not too sure anymore.

I’m not too sure of myself sometimes.

Perhaps God was trying to teach me a lesson for the classes skipped, unofficial off days from school, unattentive moments during lectures and a really serious bit of procrastination. So ladies and gentlemen, my GPA has fallen really drastically. From…

3.83 to 3.25

That’s a huge drop. Which is why i’m determined to really fight my way through the next Semester. No matter what i’ve to do well because it’s the final leg of the race. After that it’s goodbye school for 2.5 years. So God please forgive me for my naivity and help afterburn the final Semester, please.

I hope that tomorrow will be an gorgeous day. One that has rain and gentle winds to make everyone happy =)

Today, lots of things happened.

I didn’t attend church.

Though i had a sore throat, which caused my voice box to temporarily cease working this morning, i had japanese food with barbequed chicken wings and plenty of tuna sashimi.

I saw my little adorable cousins and played not too long with them before i left for cycling with uncle and mum.

My bike is wrecked, not because i mishandled it in anyway. But because it dropped from my uncle’s car while it was being transported.

My bike dropped onto the road a second time because the hook holding the clamp gave way.

I pushed my bike/rode/carried from singapore expo all the way home, cutting through vegetation (trees, bushes, etc), against the flow of traffic on a flyover which has no pedestrian lanes, slipped and fall, going up uphill slopes and most of all, laughing when i was at my doorstep because everything seemed like a joke.

It’s times like these whereby you find that life is literally a joke. And you couldnt really help it but to laugh.

The End.

Exams are over (for 3 days already) and i’ve been bumming out, chilling and just soaking all the goodness of being stress free until Wednesday, when FYP’s gotta resume. I’m really trying to find something constructive to do for the time being, until i being to feel like finishing up some tasks for FYP, but i guess i will fail at that =)

Either way, love’s leaving on a jetplane to a place where Mickey Mouse and friends will be. She’ll be away for 5 months but i guess it isn’t really a long time, considering how fast every semester just passes along. It won’t be easy but she’s got Chace and i’ve got pudding/sunshine. She’s not gone yet but i miss her already.

I’m going to Korea soon but somehow i can’t believe that i’m not the least bit excited. Perhaps it’s because there are so many things before and after i leave.

Oh, and i received my pre-enlistment letter. Med check’s coming real soon for me.

It’s only 7 weeks into this semester and somehow i feel really tired and drained physically and i don’t really have the mood to do anything. It’s less than 2 months but it feels like 4. No matter! Holidays are coming! And the FYP woes are still haunting me day by day.

I’d like to coop myself up in the library and hunt myself a private corner where i can lay out mattresses sleep and relax whenever the day gets too tiring. Sometimes i can just sit on the floor of the library with a few of my favourite books and just read on without any disturbance, with no worries about time or deadlines. And once in a while i’d like to have piglet to come over so we can admire each other in the silence. But that’s never going to happen. The librarians will most probably throw me out so…

And i want to get things really organised. Ever since i shifted to my uncle’s place. Everything’s all over the place and i couldn’t find this and that. It really sucks to think that i’ve got something but it’s somewhere in the boxes. And i tend to forget things easier these days. Must be the lack of sleep and multiple facebook games.

Piazzolla

I love  ji ah. and i love libertango.

Built

This is real. And this is good.

Exams are over.

And this semester, i learnt one very important. Make it two.

one. it doesn’t pay to give excuses about studies cause it just reflects your future.

two. expect the best, and be prepared for the worst, fuck what others think, and do your thing.

Those are the two most crucial things that i’ll be taking great note of in the final year, which according to simple calculations would really mean it’s just 7 weeks away. And in year 3, things will be tough, but it’s time determination took over. I had pretty bad scares this semester, which will not occur anytime in the future. I’ve noticed flaws in myself, great ones as well as the more subtle ones. Potest qui Vult. SPS forever.

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okay okay, lighter note. exams are over today and i’ve already spent like close to 100 bucks on nonsense stuff which i think will be future investments. haha. i bought a digital vernier calliper. and i’m gonna use it for fun, like seriously. It’s really weird though, cause ever since i had laid my hands on one, i’ve always wanted it. So here you go, a little pictures for the eyes.

Then for the past 1 month, i’ve spent 40 bucks on aviation magazines. I mean i really couldn’t resist because they’re really interesting although i wouldn’t say i’ve gained alot of knowledge from either one. Haha. By the way, i really think people who watch F1 races do not know what’s speed. Have they even seen an aircraft flyby?! Just a random thought lol.

Okay now, i should go and pack my room. Everything’s all over the place, everywhere’s cluttered up now. I shall go and give it a cleanup.

It’s already Friday and Feburary is almost at a close.

Where do all our days go when they’re gone?

the fight’s begun, but not yet won

Maths was rather alright today. The paper has been forgiving towards me but then again i really hope for that A. It may only be 3 credits but still, this really determine’s whether i’ll hate math as much as before.

Then Friday’s paper revolves around structures and repairs. Which i guess most of the cohort will die trying really really hard to battle. The story goes like this:

Tutorials are meant to be gone through right? And tutorials are supposed to be given answers so that we can check ours against it. Tutorials are meant to clarify what may seem to be doubtful at the start. Tutorials are meant to strengthen our knowledge by means of theoretical solutions.

The twist to this story is that our tutorials were never gone through. Not the least of even skimming through. And no answers were given. And these tutorials only make us confuse (no clarify) on what must be studied because of the widespread out-of-textbook knowledge that can really wipe us all clean. Lastly, the tutorials only bring about fear because we’re all damn confused about shit. Now the finale: Naturally, as all students will be – procrastinators – to find the lecturer a few days before (actually we bugged him for the answers since Tutorial 1) the exam to request for answers.

So he said to the class rep, “i will email you guys the tutorial answers by 5pm today, and if you dont receive by then please call me”. So the class rep that stands between a class desperate for answers and a pretty flippant lecturer – i had to try calling him at 5 (because i havent received anything?) only to wonderfully find out that he’s turned of his one and only cellphone.

And dont ask. He did try calling many times at different hours of the day.

So basically, you can say that for most of us, these few days leading towards the paper would be a hair pulling journey. But we’re all engineers, so i’m sure we’ll work something out. And let’s all hope that the Structures paper turn out okay. Oh, there’s no moral to the story. Lol.

By the way, the class rep is me.

Hi/bye

It’s 10:24pm and also a quick post on nothing much.

Hello world.
It’s late.
And i still have lots of stuff to do.
But i shall just go and sleep right now.
and leave my worries till tomorrow.

So.

Goodnight world (:

Sigh.

Today is the start of the new term in school and i’m leaving for it in an hours time.

No more excuses damn it.

I shall embrace it.