Without a sound

I realised that during the times i needed you most, were the times that you were never there.

I shall not let the statistics or anything of that sort keep me down.

I will be on a hiatus for an indefinite period of time. and until i sort out my thoughts, i may come back.

For now, the monkey has run out of bananas.

Goodbye.

newton’s third law of motion decreed that every action has an equal and opposite reaction.

but newton isn’t always correct.

i’ve walked round and round and never really go anywhere. i’m still back at the same place. people usually want to be taken back to the start but i couldnt even start.

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these days, aircraft and space fills my mind. this past week i’ve stepped inside a cockpit, learnt how the solar system formed and got over the fear of flying. and the more i see, the more i learn – the more i dream. and the more i want to make things a reality. god help me.

pain-loss equilibrium.

I’ve basically wasted the entire day, enjoying the weather, looking out the window, and doing pretty much nothing. And right now it’s 10PM, and i remember that i’ve got work tomorrow.

I’ve come to the conclusion that, my computer is vice, and so is facebook and all the other websites on the net. I should stop deluding myself that i can do something constructive on the computer, and so i should stop using the computer for the next 2 days.

But there’s still phone msn and facebook on my phone. That’s enough isn’t it?

“I know you’re better than this.”

He says all the right things
At exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you
And you don’t know why

Dear diary,

driving test is exactly 3.5 hours from now. The anticipation is killing me.

It feels like winter.

Only difference is that from where i am, there’s no 4 seasons, only a wet season – and today’s pretty much it. And i love this feeling of cold and when i look out the window everything seems so dreamy. Everything’s blurry and misty and most importantly, it isn’t hot. And things far far away aren’t really visible but it’s okay, because it means that you don’t have to look too far out to enjoy it’s beauty and everything else is white with falling rain.

And in that moment, you feel like you’re in your own world.

Which is why i like rain.

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Me driving test is tomorrow and quite frankly i don’t know what to expect. I mean nobody does right, after all it is a test and tests are always uncertain and unpredictable as they are. Nonetheless i pray hard and fervently for myself to get through and pass the test in one sitting. It’ll be a huge confident boost and i’ll need it.

Cold weathers make me want to write write write and not stop, because everything seems to slow down when it rains. People clear the streets and find shade, they stay at home and cuddle in the comfort of their furniture and people will find foods that are warm and soupy. And little children will have a mini fashion parade of the cutest raincoats ever =)